Maud recently went on a press tour and had the best week of her entire life. One thing bothers Maud: Tommy was not in her thoughts throughout the whole trip. Gio sends her a special message just when she returns home from the trip and she wants to contact Tommy to find out if he is home. „This trip was really great thanks to you, I had a fantastic time Maud. Would you like to have another gin together?” What is she supposed to do with this…
This week, I haven’t had the slightest clue what to do for Gio. Although I didn’t respond, I felt terrible towards Tommy. I wasn’t able to enjoy the surprise dinner and massage he gave me. He was so happy that I was back. Tommy was about to go on a wild night with us, so I pretend I had a huge headache. I couldn’t believe it.
Rochella invited me to confide in her a few days later on a girls’ night out. I told Rochella about my press trip and the great connection I had with Gio. “How is it possible that I get the jitters with other men every time? Tommy is amazing Is this your husband?!” I let out a sigh and took a sip of my red wines, looking at her with a sad face. It is indeed, but …” Rochella appears to have forgotten her words. “Well, tell you! I screamed indignation.
“You know Maud… Maybe it’s just not the one for you. You’re super young, and you have experienced everything. You have had the jitters a lot with men other that him. Have you ever considered that it might be better for you to be single?”
I stare at her with wide eyes and have to admit that she is correct. Yes, I have had the jitters quite often with another man. It can’t be right, can it? But, if I were to be single again, everything would be completely different. I don’t know if that’s something I would be interested in. Tommy is so familiar and friendly. I love him! I love him and I won’t give that up to meet a nice man on a trip.
I can’t get out. Everything that goes through my head makes me sick every week. It’s also evident at work. I just uploaded an old text online, which was full of spelling mistakes and other things that need improvement. Kimberley was the second person to point it out. The second time, tears stung my eyes. “What the hell is going on with you, dude? Is it possible that you are still in Germany, with your head, or something else?!” exclaims Kimberley. Kimberley’s expression changes when my head turns red like a tomato. “Oh, is that me putting my finger on the sore spot?” She whispers softly. I nod in guilt, becoming even more redder, and quickly yank her from her chair. “Come, go for a walk!” hiss i.
Outside, I tell her my problem with Gio. “I thought you matched so well!” she exclaims enthusiastically, but then she also realizes that I just have a boyfriend and that it is not at all ‘nice’ news. She yells at the end of my story, after I have given her an in-depth account of my doubts about Tommy.
“And that’s?” I am curious to find out, as I don’t have any idea of the solution. “Well, why not just meet him and see if you still feel those jitters?” Kimberley sneers indignantly. Although I mumble that it cannot, because it doesn’t feel fair Tommy, Kimberley’s main argument was that it wasn’t fair for him to continue with this feeling for several weeks. “Can you have a cup of tea with him? You don’t have to dive right in Maud!” she shouts.
Well, she’s right about that… When I pick up my phone to text Gio back, I see dozens of missed calls from brother, one from my mother and one from her boyfriend. I call my brother, and he picks up the phone in half an hour. „Maud! You finally picked up. Mommy is in labor!”
Maud, a college student at 23 years old, loves to travel and party. Tommy is her friend and she works as an editor at a magazine. Each week you can find her adventures in Maud’s Night Book.